a decision i'm content with

this is my official goodbye to blogger. if you like my blog and would like to continue the friendship you can go here.

on being A.D.D.

i refuse to be A.D.D. i know that everyone under the age of 30 is A.D.D. and that would include me, but i refuse to be. this morning as i was working out, i noticed how hard it was for me to focus on what i was doing and how much i needed to do and which exercises i needed to do. i've been lifting weights off and on since i was in eigth grade, i've never struggled with it. i've been noticing the same thing happening with a lot of stuff i've been doing recently. i'll be at the church and as soon as i sit down to do something i get totally distracted and then i have no idea what i am doing or what i need to do. i cannot complete tasks for the life of me now. i haven't been able to for a while. it seems like my brain is racing all the time, it is packed so full of crap that i need to and i often don't get any of it done, which just starts piling up over time. i have got to get organized quick or else i'm going to crash and burn big time. maybe i should see a doctor? i don't know what the hell i'm doing, should be doing, or even why anymore. now i'm A.D.D. and depressed. not good.



there's been a lot of research and stuff written by very smart people over the past couple of decades about adolescence lasting until we're thirty. the research and facts and reasoning all point to very solid conclusions. one reason, i'll agree with the smart people is because of what i'm experiencing now. i'm not content with anything right now it seems like. i'm not content with where i'm going to school, where i work, and even where i blog. probably the easiest decision i have to make is whether or not i switch over to typepad to do my blogging. typepad's templates are set up to be updated so much easier than blogger. maybe blogger is more for purist's, but since i'm not one, i need a tool that is quicker and easier to use. i just don't have time to learn how to work with code and other things to make my blog what i want it to be. but then again, its not like i'm posting everyday to make it worth the $5 bucks a month to do it.

the most content i am with the above three mentioned is where i work. my wife and i want to stay in kansas city for a few more years, because we like it here and we feel like there is more work to be done in our ministry to youth here.

my biggest struggle seemed to go away for a little while, but is not back in full force. i don't know where i want to finish up my grad work and i don't know what to get my grad work done in. i'm having lunch with tim keel in a couple weeks to ask his opinion(s) on seminary and the whole deal most specifically with the the programs at Biblical and George Fox. i've had very helpful conversation with tony jones where he gave me some pros and cons about Princeton, Fuller, and Asbury. for me, i'm so early in this graduate work stuff, i don't want to settle for an education that isn't going to be helpful to me. seminary is so screwed up as it is, i want to get the best out of it that i can. the possibilities are almost endless, at least thats the way it seems now, but the possibilities are also exciting.

i'm pretty sure this post sets a record for amount of links. just want to give props to all places and people mentioned.


following directions

so you may have noticed a couple unflattering pictures of myself popping up on this site. its not because i am infatuated with myself, actually quite the opposite. it is however, because i am trying to change my profile picture. i've followed the directions that blogger gave me to do this (what i did to get the pic i already have up) and yet it won't work. so i am quite frustrated. this is probably why tony doesn't post pictures or links--it is just too time consuming. maybe i should spend more time posting something with more substance than worrying about what picture is on my blog. yeah, maybe i'll do that.

Posted by Hello



thanks to my family members not knowing how to use their computers, i've been unable to stay connected over the holidays. i'm now at my sister's house where they have DSL and i can finally get online. i've virtually missed a great conversation on tony's blog about the Trinity because of it. but it's the holidays, i'm on vacation, and its going to take a lot to get me down. its been a great time with my family both my side and marie's. its been fun. i'll be ready to get back to KC though, i miss you all out there. to those that requested snow, i've got bad news. all the good snow has pretty much melted and all that is left is the dirty snow that is a result of the car exhaust and dirt and pooh. i'm not bringing that stuff back. sorry.

cassono's pizza is on the way and Any Given Sunday is on. not a great movie, but i love Al Pacino. peace.


heading home

well, tis the season for traveling to michigan and ohio for a few days. i'm excited on many levels and not on others. sounds like we're heading into bad weather and we will have two cats traveling with us. not fun. the other thing i don't like is that my wife insists on driving. i'd prefer racking up points and flying, but i'm not the one in charge. i'm afraid my books won't be arriving in at the church before we leave, so i think i may have to redirect them up to michigan. not quite sure what to do there. well i'm in charge of all the last minute things that need to be done, and i probably won't post until after christmas. so everyone have a merry christmas, happy hanukkah, happy kwanzaa, and if you're an atheist try to enjoy the next few days as much as you humanly can. peace.




I am very thankful at this point that my semester is over. I learned that I cannot do full-time work/ministry and go to seminary full-time. I don't know if it is my lack of organization, or brain power, or what it was, but it was a struggle. I got an A and a B so it wasn't all that bad, but I did mediocre work, which I don't like doing. I really wasn't all that into it either, which didn't help much. Most of the people there annoyed me to no end and the overall atmosphere was pretty old school. There isn't much room for conversation about things related to emergent, postmodernity, sports, technology, or life in general. It's all about meetings with bishops and district superindents, having charge conferences, being appointed somewhere. It was all rather annoying to me. There are a couple people though that were a breath of fresh air like Mark, Chang, Sarah, Adam, Joel, and Laura.

hmmm...other news since my last post which was forever ago. i got my "other" ear pierced a week ago. now i have both lobes pierced and will probably move onto tattoos next. my wife and exchanged christmas presents already! yeah we're both little kids. she got perfume, workout pants, slipper socks, and an assortment of white chocolate hot drink mixes. i got an ohio state sweatshirt, a button-down shirt which rocks, a beard trimmer (yes i have a short stubble, movie star thing goin now), and flannel pants. my buddy josh also got me Tony Hawk's Underground for my game system. that game kicks ass. we leave thursday for michigan, apparently there's a lot of snow there. then we head to ohio after a few days in michigan and then back home. a nice 10 day, holiday/vacation with our families. should be interesting.

waiting to get Generous Orthodoxy and Practicing Passion in the mail before we leave for some good reading while i'm away. peace.


salvation 3

continuing on in lukes gospel, kind of, the book of Acts is a sequel to luke and continues his pastoral and theological look at history and salvation in particular. this may be a new view for you because most churches teach that Acts is a historical reference work about the start of the church. while Acts certainly contains that, it is more of a theological work. so what we need to come to the book of Acts with is not, what is the church? but instead what is the function of the church? this is a radically different way of looking at the book of Acts and the church. in Acts 1:1, luke tells theophilus (which is interesting in and of itself) that he is continuing to tell the story of "what Jesus began to do (RSV)" this translation picks up the greek imperfect much better than other translations. what he is saying is, jesus began the work of salvation and the story of acts will continue the work of salvation. what luke is doing here is that he is tying the church and salvation together. this brings to light i think it was Hans Kung that said there is no salvation outside of the church. so these are my two biggest questions. what is jesus' role in salvation? and what is the role of the church in salvation? and how will those two work together? part of it i think is that the church (body of christ) continues the work that jesus began (i.e. healing the sick, raising the dead, exorcising demons, challenging imperialism, proclaiming good news, etc). salvation seems to be much more about living in a certain way in the present, than believing certain propositions that get us into heaven in the future. any thoughts?