m.div. vs. m.a. v.2
part of the struggle for me is that i don't really know what i am "called" to do. the people at my school keep telling me that it is the best place to 'discern my calling.' i know they are well intentioned, but that is an expensive way to discern my call, plus that is what i spent four years at a christian college in the ministry department trying to do and am in debt up to my ears because of it.
am i called to do what my senior pastor is doing right now? no. am i called to be a "lifer" in youth ministry? no. those things, i am sure of. i've discerned those, if you will. however there are a significant number of people within my circle that consider me to be a primary source of guidance in their search of being a christian. i know that can sound very arrogant, but i'm truely not trying to be. i've got so much to learn and so many shortcomings that i feel so inadequate to do what i am doing now. or to do what might be needed of me in the future.
thanks to those of you who've taken time to help me out, your comments really are stretching and challenging me to think and see things from different angles. i feel very selfish, but if you've got anything else to say don't hesitate.