on being A.D.D.
i refuse to be A.D.D. i know that everyone under the age of 30 is A.D.D. and that would include me, but i refuse to be. this morning as i was working out, i noticed how hard it was for me to focus on what i was doing and how much i needed to do and which exercises i needed to do. i've been lifting weights off and on since i was in eigth grade, i've never struggled with it. i've been noticing the same thing happening with a lot of stuff i've been doing recently. i'll be at the church and as soon as i sit down to do something i get totally distracted and then i have no idea what i am doing or what i need to do. i cannot complete tasks for the life of me now. i haven't been able to for a while. it seems like my brain is racing all the time, it is packed so full of crap that i need to and i often don't get any of it done, which just starts piling up over time. i have got to get organized quick or else i'm going to crash and burn big time. maybe i should see a doctor? i don't know what the hell i'm doing, should be doing, or even why anymore. now i'm A.D.D. and depressed. not good.