1.19.2005

a decision i'm content with

this is my official goodbye to blogger. if you like my blog and would like to continue the friendship you can go here.

on being A.D.D.

i refuse to be A.D.D. i know that everyone under the age of 30 is A.D.D. and that would include me, but i refuse to be. this morning as i was working out, i noticed how hard it was for me to focus on what i was doing and how much i needed to do and which exercises i needed to do. i've been lifting weights off and on since i was in eigth grade, i've never struggled with it. i've been noticing the same thing happening with a lot of stuff i've been doing recently. i'll be at the church and as soon as i sit down to do something i get totally distracted and then i have no idea what i am doing or what i need to do. i cannot complete tasks for the life of me now. i haven't been able to for a while. it seems like my brain is racing all the time, it is packed so full of crap that i need to and i often don't get any of it done, which just starts piling up over time. i have got to get organized quick or else i'm going to crash and burn big time. maybe i should see a doctor? i don't know what the hell i'm doing, should be doing, or even why anymore. now i'm A.D.D. and depressed. not good.

1.13.2005

contentedness

there's been a lot of research and stuff written by very smart people over the past couple of decades about adolescence lasting until we're thirty. the research and facts and reasoning all point to very solid conclusions. one reason, i'll agree with the smart people is because of what i'm experiencing now. i'm not content with anything right now it seems like. i'm not content with where i'm going to school, where i work, and even where i blog. probably the easiest decision i have to make is whether or not i switch over to typepad to do my blogging. typepad's templates are set up to be updated so much easier than blogger. maybe blogger is more for purist's, but since i'm not one, i need a tool that is quicker and easier to use. i just don't have time to learn how to work with code and other things to make my blog what i want it to be. but then again, its not like i'm posting everyday to make it worth the $5 bucks a month to do it.

the most content i am with the above three mentioned is where i work. my wife and i want to stay in kansas city for a few more years, because we like it here and we feel like there is more work to be done in our ministry to youth here.

my biggest struggle seemed to go away for a little while, but is not back in full force. i don't know where i want to finish up my grad work and i don't know what to get my grad work done in. i'm having lunch with tim keel in a couple weeks to ask his opinion(s) on seminary and the whole deal most specifically with the the programs at Biblical and George Fox. i've had very helpful conversation with tony jones where he gave me some pros and cons about Princeton, Fuller, and Asbury. for me, i'm so early in this graduate work stuff, i don't want to settle for an education that isn't going to be helpful to me. seminary is so screwed up as it is, i want to get the best out of it that i can. the possibilities are almost endless, at least thats the way it seems now, but the possibilities are also exciting.

i'm pretty sure this post sets a record for amount of links. just want to give props to all places and people mentioned.

1.10.2005

following directions

so you may have noticed a couple unflattering pictures of myself popping up on this site. its not because i am infatuated with myself, actually quite the opposite. it is however, because i am trying to change my profile picture. i've followed the directions that blogger gave me to do this (what i did to get the pic i already have up) and yet it won't work. so i am quite frustrated. this is probably why tony doesn't post pictures or links--it is just too time consuming. maybe i should spend more time posting something with more substance than worrying about what picture is on my blog. yeah, maybe i'll do that.


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